Identity & Forms of Address

A circle bearing six colored stripes and the Mercury sign with the alterhumanity diamond inside it.

Gender: Hermaphrodite (alterhuman)
Pronouns: shi /ʃeɪ/ | hir /hɛɹ/ | hirs /hɛɹz/ | hirself /hɛɹˈsɛlf/
Honorifics: shir /ʃɛɹ/

The concept of hermaphroditic gender irrevocably etched into the essence of my spiritual being is of alterhuman nature. Challenging and interrogating the scope of "human," it mirrors organisms that both sire and bear young, synthesizes opposing and complimentary forces, and unites womanhood and manhood under a single identity.It has little to do with the patently humanoid experience and concept of an Intersex person. As much as that is part of my experience, the only real common ground I can find there is the alienation from traditional concepts of manhood and womanhood that may have subconsciously biased me toward a mix of the two.No, I will not simply call it something else to make others comfortable. I am tired of running, tired of willingly accepting inevitable shame, and tired of erasing my roots and kin.
I will not compromise.
I will not capitulate.
I was given this name out of love and camaraderie.
I am tired of living under an alias.

About the chimera

"Vivia" before consonants, "Vivian" before vowels. Same name, different conjugation.

Greetings. I am an AuDHD tinker with an animistic love for controllers, instruments, watches, jewelry, shoes, model kits, and all other little companions in our lives who hold our memories and give them substance. Likewise to the ones who bring us strange, new experiences.Someday I'll call myself an Artificer.


If you assume I need the basic objective facts of my physical body's existence explained to me, attempt to dictate my social concepts based on that, or question my sanity based on any such things, you will be written off as too self-obsessed to exercise the bare minimum of social decency or foundational respect for your peers.That includes my sex characteristics, my species, and anything at all tangential to these things. My self-concepts and dysphorias are not and will never be yours to negotiate.



A place for various things I love.

Niheianism

A shrine for the art movement pioneered by author and architectural artist Nihei Tsutomu beginning with his debut manga BLAME! ¹

¹Pronounced "blam!" as indicated by Japanese title 「ブラム」 which is Romanized as "buramu."

Scans of BLAME! manga by Nihei Tsutomu.

Scans of Aposimz manga by Nihei Tsutomu.

Games That Hit Me Different

Some of these titles have had a profound impact on my experience as a gamer.
Some have changed how I see myself.
Some have given me fellowship.
All of them are worth your time.

Titles I will frequently apply to myself:
• "Raven" is the title shared by many pilots of high-performance combat mechs known as Armored Cores.
• "Valkyrie" is the genericized term for "variable fighters," in other words, variable-geometry mechs that convert from a ground-based (typically humanoid) locomotion to that of a supermaneuverable aircraft. I reserve the right to extend this title to the pilots of such machines.